10 - I miss her smile- 9 - I miss her giggles
- 8 - I miss hearing her say 'mama' and 'dada' and 'baba'
- 7 - I miss watching her crawl and listening to the sound of her slapping hands on the linoleum
- 6 - I miss reading her stories
- 5 - I miss having her press against me with her feet while I fed her in the high-chair
- 4 - I miss her hanging out in her high-chair eating cheerios & puffs while I cooked
- 3 - I miss watching her face light up when she saw her brother
- 2 - I miss singing to her
- 1 - I miss feeling her in my arms; whether feeding her a bottle, just holding her, lifting her up to change her diaper, or get her dressed, putting her in the high-chair, holding her on my hip or just carrying her from place to place. I just miss feeling her.
These are certainly not all the things I miss about my sweet girl, just the ones I was thinking of now.
7 comments:
April (& Cliff)-
This is soooo precious!!! I love these sweet memories! Thanks for sharing them and I'm sure all the other parents out there will cherish these 'beautiful simplicities' even more now! Thanks for choosing to share, grieve, remember, and celebrate via things like your blogs, facebook, etc. It is a privilege to see God at work in the midst of a "valley." We love you guys and count it a huge joy to call you friends. We miss you and look forward to time together ; )
love, Rebecca (for the Hoehne's)
I feel like I get to know her more as you share. Thanks for being willing...
April,
I just read your below post, "One Month." It meant so much to my heart to see those thoughts in writing. When we lost our son (16 weeks gestation, not at all the same as your loss), the thing I began wanting most then, and have continued to want now, is to hear people say his name. People are afraid to say his name to my face, afraid it will bring on tears or some emotion they don't know how to handle. But it blesses me in a huge way each time anyone says, "Nathaniel." I've explained to most who are willing to ask that, yes, I will likely cry, but that's definitely not a bad thing - at this point, it comes from joy at hearing someone else recognize his very existence and meaning in my life.
I'm praying for you guys. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be praying especially on March 27th.
Robin (cousin to Chester Mac)
Reading this sweet post for the second time and crying through it for the second time, too...thank you for your courage in sharing! Ah, she is such a sweet, precious, joyful little pumpkin -- just wishing so much that she still lived where we could still squeeze her and love her physically. Love you, friend.
April and Cliff- When I heard your news I was in a fog myself, not knowing what you were feeling or how you are coping. But for you both, I want to say Thank You! I admire the two of you as you walk this walk. Your faith and strength is admirable, and I thank you for wearing your heart on your shoulder. I am keeping you and your entire family in my prayers. I pray for your little man to cherish his memoreis and love for his Little Sis. I also pray for your both, that you both lean on each other and friends for strength. You are in my constant prayers.
Love this April. I appreciate you sharing your heart. I remember Miss Elyse at the Ranch birthday party for the Briner boys. She was so happy and just grinned from ear to ear. I know that your heart is broken, keep walking. You are a wonderful mom the Elyse and Peter and thoughtful and loving wife to Cliff. You are hearing God's heartbeat probably more clearly than ever. Lean in.
those brought tears to my eyes, everything you wrote was exactly what ive thought. i hope you and your family is holding up during this. I know it actually has been getting a little harder as times goes by but at the same time we seem to be doing ok. we just keep our heads lifted and go one day at a time. much love.
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